intoxicated...

ohhhhh my...
i couldnt believe it...
i did bout 500 +++ computer question for anatomy...
blearggghhh... verrry intoxicated....
sakittt mata... sakittt kepala all in a package...
haish... staring on d screen from 11 am camtue...
well bout 300 sumthing question lagi...
scarrrry... during exams: 100 question in 90 minutes....
recap, on how i bought d software from Melnikov Aleksei Alekseiovich.....
darn... this lecturer amatttt menduga kesabarannn...
mmg dalam hati.. haish, x dpt jugak nie pelangkung gak die ngan my laptop!
alhamdulillah on friday i managed to find him...
sakittt bahu tawww... dok kelek my laptop 2 or 3 tymes to semashko..
in the end waiting for him, to install d programme;
i almost tripped... he laughed...
then noleen came wif kash.. he smirked...
so, i said to him: sir, isho ajin, pajhalusta!
aleksei: hahahhaha.... (laughed again)
haish... he's soooo unpredictable....
then steven came...
he told us dat he's goin to be crazy... crazy day..
yesss i knoe y..... tooo many students wif lappy, wif money to buy d cd...
he's intoxicated wif it...
ngehehehee....
well,
SeLAmaT HAri RAya AidiLadha....
New Year 2007 is comin, so is there any new resolutions????
mid Till end of JAn: gonna be a looooong tyme, bustin my asss for final, wish me luck ;)

ph-il-o-so-ph-y

yeay!!!!
almost complete all zacots...
3 more to go, hopefully i'll get these 3 left before new year, insyaallah...
totally happy coz i did my philosphy already...
mind you, philospy is Hard need super duper concentration to study it!
yawn... sleepy, i slept only 4 hours today,
tHanx dMitri coz givin me Socrates & his Followers question...

people Happy Hols, Happy New Year n Gewd lUck in Ur Exams n...

best wishes in everythiN :P

p/s: i dont think dat i will update Wicked untill i finish my exams.....

dis is my pre-exams mode....
considering my state of mind is inevitably SeraBot, do forgive me for Everything dat i had done.
deeply in my heart, im seriously wanted not to be such an Ignorant person....
forgive me if i'd suddenly gave most stupid or unreasonable excuses to hang up d phone...
i can be like dis....
especially during my pre-Exam Mode
thus, i can be self-centered person as all of u cant imagine..
tho, sumtymes i wondered why...
plzz forgive me for becoming dis pathetic Person....

if dis lyfe like a fairy tales

dis fairy tales make me think bout smthg:
in a land far... far away... there live a King... one day, One of the God offered him a Big Cup dat Is full wif miracle Water.. yet, d king Had been warned by the gOd dat if he drank d miracle water... he cud live for another 300 years..... so, d king decided to call all 'cendekiawan' in his Country..... everyone came n all of them decided dat D King shouldnt drink d miracle water..... but, there is smarty pAnt bird didnt attend d meeting.... yet, d King went to met him... and d bird ask D king.....
bird: do u want to share d miracle water wif everyone???
king: i cant coz God told me not to do so.... d water is for me...
bird: well, do u want to live alone for 300 years??
king:.......... ( i forgot d ending)
well... guys, my russian lecturer asked me whether i wud drink d miracle water as if im d KIng??? i said maybe... coz i wanted to see wut will happen in 300 years tyme... i knoe its impossible... yet, dont u want to see ur next generation???? sum of my classmates directly said no coz they cant live without those people they live wif now... yupss, i knoe its kinda hard to think bout it... alone without ur loved ones... dats a torture! sumhow, everything wud be different by dat tyme... 300 years: haish, too long... impossible...
regarding to my title for these post;
if dis lyfe is a fairy tale..... it can be lots of options; whether u lead a happy life at first and then d evil one will cums along (like witches or evil stepmother)..... or u'll die sacrificing urself for d love ones.... or u meet ur Prince Charming... livin in a forest or d land ruled by haPPy go luckY King... curses... hate n lOve... ended wif moral values....

Msian NyTe 06

laSt nyte... tibelah saat2 yg ditunggu... hari yg diNantikan menjelma!!!
voila.... everythin went verrry smoothhh...
tho i did sucked up on d stage....
huahauaha.... verrry predictable... im sooo nervous back on stage after almost 2 years not performing i mean dancing (traditional lahhh not modern one).... to be precise, malay traditional dance.... freakinnnn nervous... until my hand shaling like hell.... actin cool tryin hard to supress those feelin n thank god i didnt fall or smthg... yet, im satisfied with wut we had done....
yesss, by d tyme i entered d stage i heard peeps callin my name... ehehhehe, tersengih sebentar!!! im d Puteri 7... im scared i wud make mistake: cant hear the right queue to enter... well, everythin went OK... basically, last nyte those performances are interesting... 1st year wif the traditional dance, fashion show not to forget dikir barat! d seniors: singing their heart out (caramu, serasi bersama n one english songs dat i cant remember d title by Taufiq)... d decor by joe n company are simply beautiful wif the map of malaysia at the back of the hall....
at the end of d performaces: everyone was like berebut to take photo wif the map especially..... food, are different compare to last year; spaghetti bolognaise wif grilled chicken, salads n wedges.. side dishes: bread pudding.....
end of mSian Nyte 06...

~dis winter~

doinn gewd livin in winter dis year...
tho, wen got bak from aerofloat office wif kak dila, i fell down...
uhuhuh... landed on my hand... hurt lil bit...

amattttt sengal... n i knoe dat fella is goin to d same place like me dis winter hols...

owh God forbid... malasss giler mau bersemuka!!!!

my hand hurt, worry... hopefully wont get reallly hurt, counting d days for Malaysian Nyte....

yups, dis saturday..... later comin up next, Final for Anatomy n Histology!
on the other hand: i'd watched almost 13 different movies in a row.... Fil, u MMg GILA (as usual ryna wud said dat to me) ehehhehe... cant resist it.... if there's any new movies, juz watched it....
besides doin sumthing else, i wud prefer enjoyin myself doin sumthg dat i like.... but, i knoe: studyin is d best.... hell yeah, i really hate dat wen i came to class i'd realized dat i studied d wrong part! hoih, dats bad... i studied d other chapter, i cud never ever imagine how does it feel... my hand was sooooo numb n cold... tryin sooo hard to memorize everythin dat i cud n in the end i got satisfactory for that.... thank god, no neeed to repeat the test or else i wud wastin my tyme repeatin d same chapter...
lets seeee, dis is d list of movies dat i'd watched:
1. bridget jones diary 1&2
2. moulin rounge
3. man on fire
4. armageddon
5. tokyo drift
6. sum cheerleader muvee wic i forgot d title
7. coyote ugly
8. family man
9.etc... etc... tooo much, i cant remember.....
and now: i love to watch musical n sad movies, i love james blunt songs, i tend to eat food dat im allergic toooo.... im cravin for tiramisu n chocolate mousse from secret recipe.... i hav to perform for malaysian nyte.... i havent google d choc chip muffin yet! i miss nasi goreng cheese at swensen...ouchhh, my hand is hurt;(

hoPeless

well......
dis whole week were kinda disaster for me because all of the things dat had happened to me....
i'm depressed... im useless
one of d most stupid thing dat i did: i went to d sportzal to play basketball but after i had run 3-5 rounds of the court, i stood and looked to all other players and i talked to myself that i shouldnt be here... im out of mood to play... i dun hav stamina to play.... i am WEAK lazybum...
even more worst, after i did d psychology test and d test had revealed everything... eVerything!
indeed, im speechless.... i knoe it cud be more disastrous... i tend to be irritated and simply fed up wif everyone... i almost let my anger and blame the others for d simple,small n not-dat-important stuff. wut is wrong wif me? pms.... long tyme had ended... psycopath... nope,dats not me.... i think i need help for dis! am i dat hopeless......
its shitty wen u didnt get wut u want and u did study d particular chapter but in the end u sucks at it and u didnt score it!
sum of my groupies notice dat i'd cursed more than i usually did... hell, yeah... d old me is back!
i do hav split personality... like dr.jekyll & mr.hyde.... gewd, nice Filzah no more! i hate dis.... wani asked me not to skip lectures... hopefully, i dont... i had planned my weeks... i hope it will go VERRy smoothly.... how i wish, i wont hear anything, anything dat will hurtin my ear to listen to... i hope dat d nice Filzah will be back... i hope dat i wont have nervous breakdown.... i hope dat i could stay up to study instead of sleepin all nyte ahead till d next morning... i hope dat no one is messin wif my life now... i hope dat i can perform d best durin malaysian nyte... i hope dat i didnt neglect everythin dat happened to my life.... how i wish i can do dat!

.... dearest s*****

wohoooo...
id received a message from my a fwen of mine...
it was unbeliveable...
owh... for dis sem its happen to me n other gurl...
so wut bout next seM????
ur new luvly roomie????
or she would be ur prey next month huh????
preferably...
i really wanted to slap ur face NOW....
wuts ur problem anyway??
i think u shud make an appointment wif Dr Panova togetha wif ur Bf(ur truly obedient slaves la kannn)
bet if u r readin dis...
big round of applause coz u r definitely heatin me on...
i wanted to explode by now...
like i care wut u say.....
dun u ever notice dat we can live here verrry peacefully without u....
we lead a harmonious life without u B****
by d way, im soooo happy coz u hate me
fyi, u r d first one to hate me but zillions of people livin in dis world love me...
muahahahaha....
dude, boastin bout how big n bagus ur family is not gewd coz u r not dat gewd...
stop spinning d yarn bout how bad people is in ur eyes....
use ur magical mirror (as if u bcan trust it) to reveal the REAL U....
u r messin wif d WRONG people!

HaPPy burFday To ME ;D

oihhhh... im getttin older!!!!

...d naked truth...

sumtymes... truth hurts. im writin dis basically without any purpose but id been thinking of these for a long tyme actually. yet, i dunno. im not gewd in words tho... it sucks when u wanted to tell sumone bout sumthing but they understand it in different way wic means dat d particular message dat u wanted to convey to others were misunderstood....

keepin d matters dat keep on botherin urself dat is related to other people to urself is also a big torture, i mean to myself. yet, to understand between each other is important other than the 'chemistry' of two person or more! tellin ur fwens bout hows ur feelin towards them is d best but think before u say sumthg to prevent heartfeelin, anger, revenge etc... try to 'let it go'....

gossipin especially for girls is like routine but dun get me wrong... yess i do, gossipin wif my fwens... yet, guys r d most unbeliveable gossipers in d world (my own point of view)...

its simple, wen u dun like it, juz say it... can we do dat???

probably, it depends... well, its as for me it depends on d situation n my psychology condition: as if bad mood, i would said everythin dat crossed my mind... later, i would regret it but sumtymes its a relief for myself coz id been keepin it for long tyme, waiting for d right tyme for d 'volcano' to erupt!

revenge? not dat bad... still, its gewd to show sum lesson aite?

does love ends????

togetha..... nice word aint it? i knoe, but for me... its different its kinda tough tho...
like one of my fwen whos had lots of experience togetha wif all different kinds of guys told me dat guys r all d same... yeah, im agree of it.. summore she admitted dat she's gettin bored to seee her bf every day so dats y there's this phrase: absence make d heart grow fonder.... jeezz, so other gal asked me wut were we talked about, i simply said dat u wont understand d stuff dat we discussed coz u really lurve ur boy... heheh, yes, she knows dat she wouldnt understand wut we meant.... trust, woah.... dis one is really tough one... me n my grupmate did discussed bout it... d guy asked me whether i trust d other gals n i said i dont trust them. we cant trust anyone yet it depends on certain things.... i knoe one of fwen's bf said im understanding yess im...
im enjoying my lifetyme as single... i dun want to hook up wif sumeone for d time being. i knoe the right time will cum..... but, i dun care wut others people said bout me...... juz enjoyed it..... to those who r still whining bout dis... juz stop n theres no time dat is valuable to think about it... appreciate everythin u hav.... those haertbreakers n d players, stop breakin other people hearts...
people, craaappping only. huahuahauha ;D dun bother.....

worrry

--- leavin..
yeah... leavin. basically, when people leave to go sumwhere else, i'll be fine wif dat. yet, it depends on d situation n d person himself. but, im worried bout abah n mama, since both of my sisters are leavin them for a while for their work.... yup, it'll happen to me... i knoe, its d job thinging.. still, i feeel soooo bad bout dat... tho, ryte now mmg ponnn im away from them to study... haish, i dunno.... An, d youngest one who left at home... preferably i dun want to be away from them again... well, i hav to study medicine here in RUssiA... im scared dis would be a big 'pang' from them coz 3 of us r not there... huhuhu, mama's worried face cross my mind... hopefully, my brother would be mooooooore helpful than ever!!!! An juz be goood... ;)
ma, i'll call home sooonn... as soon as i bought d phone card...
mmmuuaaaahhhxxxx....
misssin u guys lotzzz.....

#1: hey, fil! hows russia???
me: erm... yeah fine, tho sum sort of daily probs like d buses are full wif passengers n i cum late for class...
#2: how's livin wif d other students???
me: so n so lah.. since not everyone is nice n there's troublemaker livin up herre... all in all, not everythin went smooth like i always wanted ok!
#1 & #2: yeah, dats true...
uhuhuhuhuh, dats d story, nuthin is perfect n no one is perfect....
how i wish can be like Dr. Turk or Dr. JD in scrubs....
or Dr. House who looks like a psychotic man with his cane...
or Dr. Greys, sweet yet surgeon wif personal probs...
heh, yea la fill keep on dreamin...
i hate it wen im like dis!!!

yesss people, im happy but im not happy wif sum stufff dat happened to me herrrre...

get me out of dis messs!

losing rationality as a result of IMMaTurity

people listen up!!!
say, u r not happy to see dis people
since they r messin wif our lyfe herrre...
i felt like want to kick their buttt n hell yeahhh want them to get out totallly from our lyfe!
tired to hear all those TRUE STORY dat should be revealed earlier...
i mean betta stay away = 1 Terakilometer (TKm) from them,
i really wanted call them BITCHY BITCH but sum say juz wait n see...
haih, mind U its been long tyme i'd never cursing people disss bad...
stil how i wish U to read my post herre in my blogs n giv it up...
stop all those stuffs dat u'd plannned...
U make us suffer...
but, dont U notice dat u r sufferin toooo
juz wait n see, n Only GOD knows when n how...
when It is d PAYBACK tyme,
dun make ur PATHETIC face to us....
no FREE HAND will simply lend to U,
seeee im soooo sick offff u...
im waitin d ryte tyme to spill dis offf on U
U hav d tyme to regret...
rethink bout wut U had done...
dont u ever realized dat U r d most hateful person on earth...
be RATIONAL coz im sooo sick off IMMATURITY.
tho i wonder how u were brought up,
forgive me if i blame it on ur parents....
such spoilt brat,
dude, ask urself...
U r not d Superior One....
Open the HOly Quran n U'll see who IS the ONE n OnlY : THE ALMIGHTY.


p/s: other people, pray hard for them so that they will find the RIGHT PATH sooooon :)
GOD, plzz forgive us for every sinful things dat we'd done n Help us so dat we can lead a peaceful life here in dis world before we r taken back to the eternal life........

3 hari di hari Raya!

3rd syawal in russia, 2nd syawal in msia...
uhuhuuh, i called kampung yesterday (eheh, kinda sad la lil bit) yups, sedey.... everyone was there n its kinda depresssing thinking dat im alone herrrre..... huwaaaaa....heh, no la, i didnt cry terok2 ponnn... sikit2 ade la especially by d tyme i talked to my aunt, wak mon... adoi!!!! she's sooo pandai to make me cry.... talked to abah, mama, kak mie, kak dayah, dira, 3 aunts n lastly syafiq (yea, my cuz, who is goin to hav his spm in 3 weeks tyme: dude, chill, i knoe u can do it, comparin to myself yg not dat skema n kind as u back in 3 years ago). basically, while i was talkin to them one by one, i can hear d back up sounds la kannnn; people chit chatttin n laughing, discussin about dis n dat... seeee, like my sis, kak dayah told me dat: ye la, u knoe our family nieh once da jumpe cannot stop talkin!... (yea, i knoe bout d facts) hihihihi....
sambutan raya di russia, particularly in nizhny novgorod, kami menyambutnya dengan sebaiknya, tidak lebih dan tidak kurangnya walaupun jauh dari keluarga yg tercinta... d day before raya, 7 of us menjual nasi minyak n mee goreng. alhamdulillah sambutan daripada pembeli amat menggalakkan n we consider d profit as our duit raya :D summore d day before it, we went to MEGA..... so, we bought sum stuffs from IkeA dat cost bout 4300 rub. in d end, im havin footache till now coz saya berjalan dgn banyaknya.....
yesterday, i planned to skip anatomy class, unfortunately, Larissa's messenger aka XB told d 4 of us (me, ryna, syahir n malini) to attend d afternoon classs.... but thing turns up to be unexpectedly....actually, Larissa was joking to XB to see us in d afternoon n she wouldnt mind dat we didnt showed up in the morning class..... well, d 4 of us were quite pissed... ehehehhe, can u imagine wif d stomachache, headache n all went to d class... nevermind, let bygones be bygones!!!
today, big discussion in physiology class... thank God Dr. volkova wasnt mad us tho we cant answer her question perfectly like she always wanted....

fiddle dee dee......

***Your Birthdate: November 21***
You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone.
Your strength: Your thirst for adventure
Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures
Your power color: Hot pink
Your power symbol: Figure eight
Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/

seee... dis is miss allia. lia, dun worry u'll always looks sweet lah... haih, missin u guys lots
dis picture was taken in athirah's room at uitm sec. 2.... d day all of us wen out, hanging out togetha... i think for d first tyme after we were out from school, taking different path in our life, choosing d best one for us... pursuing our studies aite.... 3 weeks after im bak hommme, mesia... so, miss amy picked me up (heh, i didnt hav license yet till now) lunch at amin thai at sec.7 with others... pusing2 n pick up allia.... pusing2 lagi... went to uitm.... meet d others of us :)
5 years in langkawi??? hell ya... dats a long tyme babe..... keep in touch ok...

SeLAmaT HArI RaYa

MaaF zAHir & BatIn

LocO...

wooohohoohoh.....
yesss, call me crazy.... i think im gettin biol now... tho tomorrow i hav biochem test (amatt malas to open d book)....
now, its 7.41 am in the morning.... kinda early to write la kannn....
im bored, dats y.... basically, i did my physiology task as usual referred the answers from senior n combined lil bit wif the lecture notes. tho, for d last 2 weeks i didnt attend d lectures (im sorrry, Prof) hehehhe, last nyte while i was asleep, i'd received a message from XB tellin me there's no RusssIan ClaSS, so yeay! hehehe, yesss, i do.... well, it doesnt mean dat i hate to attend d class but at least i can squeeze in my tyme to study biochem... huh? dun expect me to study during weekends lah, yea, im lazy med student heh... its not dat, i do study but i hav sumthg else to doo (people, dun get me wrong, susah la study, medic ini but dun pressure urself, take it easy n u'll do great) ..... mama texted me to tell dat my pics suda kuar in Utusan for saLAm peRantauAn..... faStin in mesIa... i bet, dat it's a BlasT wif all those fooodss..... (cendol, murtabak, ayam golek, ayam percik etc etc) fill! puase lah....

wish me luck :P

yesterday.......

lets seeee, ok. its 11.54 pm, 14th october 06. yesss, its 0ctober now! yikes, i sedey 24th nanti its eid mubarak!!!!!! missin homme tho i'd been livin away from homme for 5 years plus dis comin 4 n half years in nizhny, here in russia.... well, i called homme talk to mama as usual, borak2 all those things dat pop in my mind.... hehehe, tellin her bout dat we r goin to make pasar ramadhan: yess, sooooo laku! smpai x menang tangan... sume habes, smpai yg di reserved ponn ade yg nak beli tp suda direserved tuk org yg menempah! hoih, first tyme i made lots of begedil together wif kak husna (haih, lenguh tangan menggentel!) chakoi n doughnut by kak amy, kak fiza n kak dilla while pudding n che mek by kak anis n kak amani..... huhuhu, amat penat n still got d scent of kitchen.... duit raye! mama said dat might be i wont get it lah, coz all of uncles n aunties had given to me already b4 im back herre.... (hiiii... still wandering tp fat chance lah) but x mengapa.... jpa kannn ade! heh, i hav to be a jimat person... yea, my plan is to go to uk... hopefully can make it.... im on budgeting now soooo plz, stop me from shoppin all those stuff yg x perlu!!!! while looking thru fwenster n approved peeps who made requests.... found sumbody's page yg mmg suda lame dicari... hoh! mmg x jangka ble jumpe tp tengok je lah.....
ouhhh, i hav pet sis... farihah namenye, first tyme seyh, ade adek angkat!!!
till then, i hav to study or sleep n wake up early to do my usual job: StUdY :p

HaPPy DaY

wut a happpy day...
well, there's one thing will make me HAPPY= sHoppiNg!!!!
but the bEST Part is I didnt spend MOre than 2000 Rub to buy All those THings dat I wanT like:

::Davidoff Cool Water (yess, i knoe its an old perfume, still i'd be longing for it since im 13!)

::those seee Thru coloured file Dat i'd been Searching for One sem at Ramstor

::maryJ blige, Fall Out boys N pink cds (coz Teddy Geiger's cd x jumpe)

yesss, at least my moooood to study suda datang.... i like :)

hating it soooo much until I become dis pathetic person!

me: hello!!! heyy, r u leavin now???
xb: ya lorh.. where r U???
me: im in my room i'd juz finished studying histo... so scared lah!!!! ey, do u mind, wait for me, 10 minutes later i'll get down....
xb: 10 minutes a??? make it 7 plzzz... kinda late already... its 0730 ryte?
me: no lah.... its 0725.... wait ya....
aish, can u imagine its killin urself ok preparin half of a day or to be precise nyte tyme wen u r suppose to sleep to study histology... my brain is like TEPU already!!!!
later at d class,
IYS: ok, plz explain to me about dis slide
me: (damn! wut d heck, i cant recognize any part of it! only adipose cells) :: loooking at d slide thru d microscope:: ehhhmmmm..... (ready to hentam saja!) dis is d slide of the wall of the heart
IYS: yessss... u're correct. now, show me d structure dat can be recognizable in the preparation
me: wall of d heart consist of 3 layer, endocardium, myocardium n pericardium n dis is epicardium because we can notice d layers of adipose cells at dis layer
IYS: (checkin on d stucture) yes, u're correct. plz show me the most distinctive or thats different from all other structure n explain it coz d adipose cells is not an important part. now name dis structure plz...
me: (gosh, dis is vessel but i cant be sure whether its a vein or artery) ouhhh, dis is a vessel
IYS: yess, wut kind of vessel???
me: uhmmm... its either artery or vessel.
IYS: aha.... but wuts d different btwn those vessel in each layer?
me: well, its gettin smaller in size from the upper layer to the lower one...
IYS, she changed d slide
Me: dis is d slide of respiratory part ........ (ntah btul x??? siuttt giler takottt nyer, lupe dah!)
IYs: plz be precise bout d slides
Me: (hell yeah im tryin sooo hard, n the end) slides of part of lungs...
IYS: maybe, plz find d structure

~~~~~~~~~~~~

hoih... i get mixed up d one suppose to be terminal bronchi i said its segmental!!!! shooooooot, everything was like offffff from my head n by the tyme i sat on d chair beside Irina Yuriena Surabryekova, ItS Gone..... i felt sooooo stupid n guesss wut she said dat i can explain d hearts slide well, but for respiratory n lymphatic slides... it turns up all wrong! dang! even d medulla part of thymus i couldnt recall d most important structure: Hassel's corpuscle....uhuhuhuhuh y la on earth im toooo nervous especially during histology....
I Hate IT! summore d lecturer wanted d deeepest answer lah, 1000% from d lecture n related to last sem... yesss i do know dat we r havin d final exam wic is d BIG exam for histo dis sem.... yikes.... tooo scary i can imagine... im soooo want to blame myself coz im toooo nerVous....

lill bit recap coz im bored

ouhhh yeah... plz abaikan bout my last entry...
pissing off to no specific person till all my housemates pelik!!!
heh, maybe im havin my PRE Pms...... ehehhehe
anyhow, its gettin super cold herrre....
i dunno y... seriously sooo lazy to go out, feel really comfy stayin in d room n sleep :)
thank god, class at Cemashko 3 days out of 5
well, d juniors had arrive: Jpa scHolars, same age as me n they are suppose to Go tO indon, but, unfotunately Jpa sent Them here coz no Places for them to study There, maRa few of them, x smpai 10 peeps, private: byk juge, ade Pak Fak, 1st Year, Strouitelni....
i didnt escort them to all those places like Ramstor, spoRta n all, coz x larat seyhhhh... still havin d flu n cough
yet, d sickness had infected kak Dilla, sorry im might be d vector!!! huahauahuaahau :P
test on anatomy: kinda felt bad coz laRisa Knows dat i cud do betta on d writing test, yeah, me tooo, ohohoho, i'll do my best on the next one!
philosphy: dMitri really loves to ask me bout isLam perspective yet im not d best person to ask coz lack of knowledge n i cant 100%ly explain d one dat he wanted.. it's hard to explain it especially wif people dats think tooo much n tryin tooo find sumthing dats important, d truth of life, hopefully he'll find d riGht path
callin homme: d best part, since i didnt call my family bout 2-3 weeks like dat n mama was teling me to cook asParagus (yeess, ma i knoe its sedap!) kak mimie was yelling asking me how many peeps r goin to uk n i told her Ramai will go, so she told me to stay at HoteL not her house coz she didnt get any house or apartment yet before leavin msia to go to birmingham to work there!
fasting: not dat hard since dis is my 2nd tyme fasting in russia.... still, d tyme not dat differ in msia tho, lebey kurang
exercising: noooo...noooo.... nooo.... i didnt exercise dats y im gettin fat!!!! chocs r all over me especially riTTer sport! (nieee ha, in front of my laptop ponn ade 1 pack eheheh) uhuhuh, how i wish to play basketball back.......
October: Yikes!!!! my exams: close to it already.... thinking of it, damn seriously nervous, x start revise lg... darn, shud stop berangan NOW!

ahahahahahhahaaahhauuuuu :D

tilll then

inner side of me

last nyte, chatting wif diba. haish, soalan cepumas suda diajukan, sori diba bout dat it didnt work. so, d problem is me, not d others. i dunno y??? people have different perception aite bout other people... they see me as gewd, nice person n sum are afraid of me coz d way my face look. yup, dat stern look la kannn... wonder y, tho my fwens woulld say dat d way u stare, wohooo real scarry la fill... summore wen u didnt talk to others... heh! ya la... x kan la i nak membebel x tentu pasal 24/7... im not dat kind of person... i do talk to the one dat i know... serious, strangers... x ponn org yg i kenal tp x rapat, senyum saje!!! ohohoh.... well, u cannot change d way people think bout u until they know bout u, d real truth... still, d true colours of a person cant be revealed so easily until u know him or her better... i mean d longer u be fwens wif them, u will know.. yet some test can be done or d simple one juz ask them... still to ask sum personal question shud be "berlapik" jgn la tooo straight forward.. unless, u r d straight forward person... sooner or later u'll know them... n i hate to say dat, being d one who always help d other, kinda exhausting!!! yess, its gooood to help people, tp dont count on me tooooo much... i hate wen i was instructed to do this n dat... im not d kuli batak!!! (huh, emo already) yea la, sedey tau... asyik2 harapkan fil... u wat la sendiri... hati saye nie sape yg tahu... penat simpan... fill x tau sampai bile bole tahan or d best way i wud juz let it go!!!! let it go??? its easy, but wen u are angry, mesti mengungkit kan??? ingat balik all those things they'd done to u..... tired n sakit hati saja. im a sensitive person, God knows bout dat, simply says dat fill can do dat n do dis... pissed off, do it urself lah... malas da nk layan
p/s: later on, fill mesti x smpai hati, akan membantu juge, tp if nak bg pengajaran ponn ble jugak eh? but Mama says dat we shouldnt be toooo berkire since we r livin in small community here in nizhny, 6 years babe, ryte now br 2nd year, same person u'll see n same person u'll ask for HeLp!

psycho

psychology, wooohoooo, psychotic class seyhhh...
yea.. last week 20 peeps who went to d lecture
well, seems like PAnoVa x marah mane
she looks fine.. not dat cynical
yet, i felt d atmosphere was like psychotic....
a lil bit depressed coz still havin flu.....
early in d morning: sejuk gila!!!
afternoon: panas, seperti pagi di mesia
uhuhuhuhu

verrrry verrrry psychotic!

RAmadan

seLamaT berPuase PeOple!!!!
uhuhuhu..... 3rd tyme fastIng without Family.........
1st: spM tyme tho my Paper BersaMbung After Raye (i wonder Sape yg wat d Jadual)
2nd: FirsT year In Nizhny lah (where else)
3rd: Now!!!!!
tooooo Bad, im havin fever+ flu+ cough= my tekak is sooooooo Hurt!
hoPEfully, d medication dat i'd bought juz now will HELP
coooking???
my first CookiNg duriNg RAmaDan: NAsi Beriyani :P
i PasseD my Anatomy conTrol today: one Shot, 3 tests are complete... hi.......... kinda proud of myself eh...
mISssing my faMily soooo much.....
teraWih; i missed once, last nyte.... penin kepala yg amat!!!! haish..
till then...
mmmuaaahhhhxxx :*

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my GirL

koRean Drama....
Dad: Ija, pg la bli Only You punye drama, lmbat la tunggu kat tv
Me: abaH, bg la duit.... later Ija bli...
juz now, i read my sis's blogs n found out dat my daddy had bought new korean drama Series: My Girl!!!! aBah, post it Lah to me... Raye haji pOnn x pe, plzzzzzzzz... i wonder my dad's punye new hobby ini, still same as d others, i mean all of my family... even my cousin especially d guys ponn same... haish, pelik juge lah... mengapa ini terjadi....

banjir story

okay, dis is story bout banjirrr...
i went out from d block, rushing since im late for biochem lecture!!!!
so, didnt lock d door
all of sudden balik from d lecture....
as i stepped on d floor in d toilet...
*plop* bunyi air yg bergenang dlm toilet dipijak...
i was lyke....
ohmigod!!! shit, wut shud i do....
habes lah... dibebel, thank god komandan x de,
still, mama datang... (memberi bebelan)
thank u to kak dilla for the explanation...
risau, da la cakap russian ponn x reti sgttt
huhuhu
sooo ryte now, waiting for d deans lah
nmpak gaye kene bayar duit lah nieee... :(

D letTeR

Hottness Babes :)
Room 321, Hostel no. 3,
Medical Street,
603104 Nizhny Novgorod,
Russia.

________________________________________________________________________

To Whom It May Concern,
Nizhny Novgorad State Medical Academy,
Nizhny Novgorod,
Russia. 21st Sept 2006

Sir,
Leakage of Water to the Library

Regarding to the matter above, we are very sorry about what had happened on the afternoon of 21st September 2006.

2. We realized it is solely our mistake, but we never meant to let that happened purposely. The incident occurred out of our control. For your information, we were not in the room at the moment the leakage took place.

3. However we think there might be reasonable explanation to this. On that morning, there was no hot water, so one of us might turned on the tap and left it open without our knowing. So, during our absence, the incident came about.

4. Taking into account that this is the first time such incident happened since the past 4 years we live here, we hope you will kindly take this matter into consideration.

We regret every difficulty that both parties have to deal with. Your cooperation and understanding is utmost appreciated.



Yours truly,




Hottness babes :)

MoOd

i'd finished my russian class, Anastacia is my lecturer..... so, d first question from her to me...
anastacia: wut makes u bad mood???
me: uhmmm..... when im tired!
anastacia: when do you feel tired?
me: when im studyin a lot....
anastacia: owh, so today u r bad mood
me: nope, im in gewd mood
anastacia: ok, maybe u r not havin many classes today....
(dis conversation is translated into english from russian)
alright, im kinda in a gewd mood now.... not in grumpy old lady like mood.... hopefully my physio class wont be dat loooooong..... verrrry tiring tho, tomorrow biochem (probably havin multiplechoice question kontrol) haih, y oh y???
friday: anatomy n histology...
weekends: hav to study: anat n histo also coz next week gonna hav test
aish, i havent get d right answers for Dmitri Izutkin question yet,

wut drives u to live on in dis life???

Is it love, money or smthg else????

PiE

seeeee.... sedap x dis fruity pie???? i made it! ehehehhe.....well, it was not complicated to make d pie.... actually, i made it specially for kak amani since it was her bday on sunday but since all of us quite busy so we decide to celebrate it on saturday malam ahad... ramai yg datang wif prezzies, glad dat she likes d prezzies from me.... i gave her computer speaker, dats wut she wants la... eheheh... btw, kak anis assisted me on mencantikkan d pie n fix d custard since im not d arty farty person n im not verry good in tasting sweeeeeety stufff :) there was one time, i made air milo for buka puasa at d house coz mama was busy wif sum sort a persidangan at dewan n abah said: "ija, ur air milo x rase pape!" aiyo.... soooo malu ngan abah so, An my lil bro fixed it. Sorrry, i dun like sweety stuff dats y my rasa manis towards food is different wif others.... still, im learning how to rase manis yg dpt diterima sume.... :P

Happy Burfday To Larisa Nikonova

fyi, larisa is my lecturer for anatomy, she loooks gewd wif her new hair colour...

oh my... syndrom malas melanda.... yea, i'm havin it ryte now... the weather is quite cold, verry nice weather to sleep all d tyme :)
well,
im lazy to do homeworks,
im lazy to read d books dat i have to read,
im lazy to study,
im lazy to do walk n travel here n there to go to class,
im lazy to go to class
im lazy to attend d lectures
but,
i luv to sleep
i luv to eat
i luv to watch movies
now,
im tryin my best not to shop
im tryin my best not to fall asleep at nyte when im suppose to study
yet,
i will do my best to complete all d tasks
i will do my best in cooking
i will do my best to control myself not to talk bad bout people dat i dun like
how,
i wish go back to the old years when i was a child
i wish my brain like a photostat machine so dat i dun get mistakes when there was a pop quiz in d class
i wish i cud express myself, like i always did loooong tyme ago!

last nyte, thirah sent me the pics during siti n dato' k wedding ceremony.... superb lah.... soooo beautiful.... hottnesss... i like it verry much... im sooooo gonnna missed them....

today, watched PerSona Non Grata... erra as sha or miss hey... can u imagine.... hey! funny but all in all most of the movies are all bout fantasy nothin real... except film of history mmg la real..... lately, i watched lots of malay movie... thanx to kak anis, she's d supplier for malay movies... till then

malay film

GuBRa.... last nyte we watched it.... woah! verrry controversial ok! in my opinion, mmg byk adegan yg x perlu dilakonkan.... sheeeeeshhhh, dahsyat jugak... no wonder ade my fwen buat muke pelik...
fwen: asal ko nak tgk gubra???
me: asal ko da tgk ke?
fwen: x lah, aku bace comment ponn da terokkk...
me: ouhhhh.... yg terok la yg fil nk tgk ehehehe... :)
dat's all bout GubRa....

Congratulations fillpill, you are 70% not Malaysian.

That means you're as Malaysian as...

Guy Sebastian !

How Un-Malaysian Are You?

dear kamilah
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lah, fil mintak maaf coz x reach klia at d exact tyme... i tot ur flight was at 1550. so, budget from klcc can reach there la bout an hour and half. thank god met u 2 or 3 days before u fly.... itupun awak yg bawak fil jalan2... ehehhehe..... thanx to u... well, at least we met thirah, nad, qish, hajar, syik, ili n murni kannnn... gewd luck n all d best...

nabil
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aishhh.. ur farewell party cant go coz i had a family gathering at bidor, perak. sooo, d nyte u offf to u.s smpat call, i think dat one was the last conversation between us other than d day u graduated in intec... all d best to u tooo

amy lalink
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dis sept, fly to uk kan??? hopefully can meet u sumday when fil gi sane ok, since, my sis ponn still in menunggu for d permit to work in birmingham....
u take care there n gewd luck..... tell me bile u fly tau!

aainaa kamilah
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i know u r goin 2 hav big exams for ausmat in 3 months tyme, gewd luck for exams.... n u can do it.... thank u sbb u sanggup teman me to lgkw togetha wif azyan n jd our driver for 3 days... sori coz i changed d date (sumthin else turns up!)

to azyan liyana
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yan!!! (opppssss, i knoe u hate it wen i call u by dat name). shah tue comel, soooo dun feel like u r using him or sumthing... appreciate everythin dat he had done for u... kinda sweet n btw u jgn rase inferior coz everyone is flying off to pursue their studies in overseas ok! malaysia ponnn not dat bad... a.c.c.a nanti u buat la in uk...

ira, thirah, shirin n allia

u guys soooooo sori ok.... fil x bgtau fil da blk russia... bukan x nak bgtau.... sekali je kannnn jumpe... tp x pe, next year jumpe lg ok.. best of luck in ur studies

aalyaa, ijat n tini
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ohohoooo, ajak fil gi muzium hantu! haishhh, seriously mmg naik seram sejukkk fil... scary gilerrr! soooorrrriiii x bgtau fil da balikk... sooo paham2 lah if u guys message or call x de org angkat or my dad yg angkat...... gewd luck

nad dearie
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ehehhehe.... at last we met again at pyramid... mmg if not till when mmg u x jumpe fil, aainaa n azyan... miszz ya lots... 20 years in tyme, u design my house... hiiii...

high maintanence

are u guys a high maintanence person?????

wait up, let me enlighten u wif d definition dats i'm not sure how to explain in this blog.... high maintenence: if u watch Desperate Housewives u'll know actually wut does it mean; Gabbrielle Solis is d perfect example for a high maintanence person.....
huermmm.... frankly, this topic crossed my mind while i was chit chatting wif my sis, the 2nd one la... let say a person asked u... wut did u use for ur face??? so u answered it: neutrogena n loreal's product plus st. ives face mask..... wut bout ur hair??? juz loreal's range: d shampoo, conditioner n hair mask. perfumes: well d one dat i have it ryte now.... lotion: blah... blah... (x larat nak type)
branded stuff??? obviously everyone used it, kinda universal brand in the world.. not dat really expensive aite??? still affordable...
talkin bout bags n shoes, heh! for sure buying d one wif d brand plus d quality that at least wud last bout 2 years is fine for me.... juz imagine, if u use barang murah yg x tahan lame pastue kene bli baru betta bli yg mahal n tahan lame.... alah membeli, menang memakai...
hehehehe.... my point is people who are high maintanence: not wasting their money on all those kinda stuff.... it's juz them n let it be as long as they are happy n we are happy but, juz dun try to lead ur life like them if u cant. that's all :)

my journey back to nizhny....

ohohoho...... 29th aug 2006. 6am i arrived in nizhnynovgorod in front of the 3rd hostel. cold???? hell yeah!!!! tp x sesejuk winter (a little bit exaggerating here...). juz imagine, from msia my flight was like at 0745 and hav to bertolak from house like 0430 camtue, like mama said: Ija's flight SUBUH SYAFIEEE! mmg pagi2 lg kene kuar.... sori abah, i think dats d only flight yg bley dpt for dat day... while at the airport, kinda bad luck actually, d attendat was sooooo god damn strict, die suro kuar kan brg 6kg from my hand luggage if not my hand luggage kene masok kargo n hav to pay 16 kg extra= RM 2000+++. ouh, amat mahal, bole beli byk bende and bills for 3 months la kan. so, i hav to take all my books out. at first, i thought want to ask abah to post it, tp, alhamdulillah... farah is my saviour, she took 3 books out of 4, so i took another 1 n kept in my elle bag, yg mmg sedia ade besar! so, i hav 2 hand luggage, elle bag, small beg tarik plus laptop bag (its sooooo kembong full of wire n my dvd collection: one tree hill n others).
the flight was actually sucks! i cant eat fyi, got massive headache im sooo jealous wif nava coz she can eat everything dat was given on dat tray....
Qatar.... sooooo hot. apparently, while im in transit in doha, i didnt shopped for perfumes.... ehehehhhe
moscow, long queue at the immigration juz imagine one person its like 15 minutes to lepas the immigration officer.... tenung muke lah.... suro bukak spectacles lah.... haish!!!!
wait until 12pm, so d bus driver smpai.... off to go back to nizhny..........

mesia

holidays... yup kinda bosan already.. nothing much to do but stilll ade la keje yg nak kene buat.. hopefully habes before balik!!!! if not i'll die... to my rummates, d bawak kicap n chillisauce kimball byk2! fil x courier all d stuff yet still thinking bout d list! i'm impresed wif myself coz x shoping gila2 lagi.. eheheh... jpa thank u! byk btol duit masokkk :)

dooooooooHHHHHHHHaaaaaaa

yeahhhh... pretty soon be back in shah alam...
ouh wait, im in doha now... waiting for d flight to go bak homme...
it'll be soon... cant hardly wait!!!
roomies, gewd luck for d next exam ok!!!
enjoy ur trip to italy, france, luxembourg n lalalala~~~~ (haih, i x ingat la)
btw, i want sumthing la from d country... ape2 ponn jadi la...

eheheh, br shoppin perfume LAGI! dis tyme DIOR aDDict!!!

quite a bargain... x rugi beli!!!! ehehehe, balik sini... nak beli lagi :)

to my beloved family, i'll be home soooon!!!

l.o.l

yahaaaaa.....a quote from chandler bing!

alhamdulillah, i'd finished my exams already, visa all clear...
waiting for d day to go back...
souvenirs, still tidak cukoppp... yea, amattt banyak to buy.. still, sorry sape yg x dapat... BaKI BaWa ke Depan... i'd finished cleaning up d microwave n d fridge... toilet n shower room clean already: yesterday, sudah dibersihkannnn... see, im sooo boring n cant sleep sooo betta do sumthing dat is berfaedah.... all d kakaks r busy studying for d exams,
kak dilla, kak anis, kak husna: path phys
kak amani: path phys n surgery
me busyin myself shoppin for people, verry happy coz d day end of exam went to respublika then ESPRIT sale! got instinct bout d sale tho cannot borong dgn banyak sbb ade baju yg x sesuai dipakai!!! tp nak sangatt one bag, jeans bag.... cantekksss but talkin bout d price, i think i can get sumthing else like shirts: 3 to 5 camtue...
yet, dis is our passion now, d piano game...
haih, piririv saje... one by one will grab my laptop n play d game... wif full of concentration, good for ur brain.
today, get d visa n then shOppin again... well, dis is me....

p/s: i think maybe dis is my last blog or 2nd last before went back homme until im back again in nizhny! Abah is verry strict bout entertaiment in d house coz lil bro, An... he's goin to hav PMR... no PS2, no ASTRO, no Internet..... hahaha, i think i wanna giv a try to pujok abah to pasang d streamyx after one tyme ade one peeps from kedai telekom lied bout d price... sheeesshhhh, nak tipo ponnn tgk lah org, kantoi... coz abah works in telekom also!!!! hahahaha, mmg btul RD's report bout KL full wif people yg biadap.

dear roomies..... enjoy ur hols in italy n france! gooood lucks for d examss... mmuahhxxxx :)

childhood dreams: wanna be popular, super hot girl in d school or married to prince!!!!

owwww, wic one.... fine, both of my roomies want to marry a prince during childhood. heehehee, yup gurls mane x penah dreaming bout to marry a prince...... well, oh well, wic prince ah??? haih.... 'mengkoyakan' diri but there's nothing wrong wif dat... soooo chomeyhhh... huermm... im wondering what was my childhood dreams??? maybe married a prince also.... ehehehe, juz wait n seee :-) hihihihihi....

ohmigod, seriously i cant help myself now, last paper: physics, then kaaboooooosshhh back home!

allo:unusual

allergic: sensitivity, unusual reaction toward something.
phobia: neurotic fear of something
im allergic to PRAWNS, SQUID others seafoood except D Fish!!! hahahha.... im quite surprised at first. id done few experiment on myself, indeed im allergic to prawn n squid. oih, soooo GataL by d tyme id finished eating it.... first, gatal at hidung then tangan and the worst, gatal whole of my face! its verrry irritating n Gatal...
phobia~ im phobia to EXaMs!!! hahaha, juz imagine how nervous im to get d ticket for d question.. yup, dis is my major prob: nervous then i'll forget everything dat i'd studied, get confused in the end made mistakes! haih, i dunno on how to manage it...
thank god, Alhamdulillah i passed my chemistry.....
allergic and phobia.....
till then, im tired n still thinking should i watch d next match France vs KOrea.

world cup fever(ohmigosh! it strucks me again)

today, was d first day i watched full match of brazil vs australia... im glad, im happy dat i can watched it, coz i'd finished my chem already, considered lil gift for myself :)

-_-

hmmmm..... adoi! thank u to
wani n everyone... tengah sedey sgtttt niee... balik jer terosss nangiss
haih, i
dunno why lah.... lately im sooooo senang to cry... then more
worst,
my heart
hurts... dugaan. uhuhuh... my eyes really pedih... my
head amat
sakittt.... wani
thanx to u a lot! mmuahxxx, talkin to u, it
really helps
since i dunno where to
go to talk wif... tho, i knoe dat u
are tired n
wanted ito sleep la kan, still u
r there listening to my
'bebelan' n xiang
bin, thanx for d message... im quite
flattered there
are soooo many people
care bout me n mama, thanx for d email....
i knoe,
ramai sayang me... it
helps me to get thru with it... how i wish i cud
turn back d tyme... still,
i hav to stop whining, crying n regretting
bout d
past, face it la fill,
stop n start new lyfe! 2 more papers wif
flying colours
ok!

latin o latin

darn! lame x update...absolutely no idea wut to tell....
feel soooooo bengong la ryte now...
dunno how to let it goooo
tp x pe, u cant turn back d tyme....
haih, i wished i cud seeee my mistakes....
bencinyerrrrrrr....
nasib baikk..... she consider my performance in d class,
thank god! i nak 5 tp dpt 4....
its ok, its latin....
dun force urself toooo much babe...
3 more papers coming up next....
usaha!!!!!
( my own motivation for myself)

when my mind...

dis is my regret: i felt like goin to lgkw when i was form 1 was a mistake... BIG mistake... i dunno, aainaa said dat she wanted to be lil cute young gurl in her family n she wanted to stay wif her family n dun want to be apart... and yes, i do.... i wanted to be juz like dat.... i cant stop whining n yet complaining bout studying in lgkw, away from family at verry verry young age: 12 (wic is not yet 13, i was born in November).... i cant imagine if i enter lgkw when i was form4 and i dunno whether i can manage to get myself a place in dat top school! ohohohho, dats a compliment for my old school, its not dat i wanted to blame my parents or d school.... i knoe its for my best, especially my future.... tho, i dunno... kinda sad to be far away from family u knoe... surviving by yourself... act to be mature enufff but deep down u wanted to different.... why ohhh why???? dis is wut u called growin up... no turning back... once be mistaken, stop n think.... dun do it again, take it as lesson, u can learn it from sumone else experiences but d best one is ur own. sumhow, as in friendship, u can be choosy to whom u wanted to be friends wif but.... u hav to be friends wif everyone... dun be dat picky but they are on the wrong side n u knoe bout dat... help them to the right path but if they are unchangeable, juz leave them ( it takes tyme for people to realize their mistake) yet, dun lost hope on them, juz pray for them.

for relationship... eheheh, cant say much bout dat. im not d expert bout it :)

wut else??? financial? aish.... fully support by JPA.. hahahha, budget ur expenses but im shophaholic cant resist from buying stuff, still, i buy when i want n of course im goin to use d stuff dat i bought...

study? study smart not dat hard, push urself to d limit...but i hate failure...

summore, i dunno wut or wic part dat is important to conclude....

still thinking on wut shud i type...

sight seeeinggggg

4 of us out of 8 peeps in Group B: Azryna, Xiang Bin, Sathiya and me :)

pic of the bank i mean, river bank lah....

3rd of june, last day of Russian Intensive class, it was nice berjalan-jalan wif our lecturer, sight seeing other part of nizhny novgorod other than everyday ulang alik from cemashko to bfk to hostel.... i enjoyed it but feel tired coz toooo much walkin from there to herre... last stop, mc d wif azryna.... ehehehehe...

e.x.a.m.s!!!!

ohhh my.... im soooo scaredd.... exam is juz aroud d corner... eh, no lah... sooo close:

10th june~ latin

14th june~ biology

18thjune~ chemistry

26thjune~ physics ( suppose on 22nd june but i dunno d date had been extended, maybe monich knows betta then we did)

dis coming monday~ histology kontrol for d nerves, hopefully i'll score dis tyme.....

hoih! i wanna go back home lah....kalo bole nak balikkk sekarang jugak!

oppps, dis 12th june: an's bday

26th june: allia's bday

27th june: athirah's bday

uhuhuhu......soooo many things to study, piles of books to read....

why ...... oh..... why.....

answer me puhleeeezzzz, who'd invented exams eh??????

antipathia :(

dis pic is copied from deyna's fs

aishh....
book: dude... open me up, n read plus memorize all those words are written in it! or in other words..... sTuDy!
brain: hey, hold on. i need a rest!
me: wut???? ok, rest for a while then.... (tho, i'm bloggin herre)
me: gosh, d exams.... i hate it, but gotta get thru it.... latin, bio, physics, chemistry.... who invented d exam eh?
nyehsssss, i do hav to study.... tired coz id finished preparing physics answers scheme lah... summore dis monday: latin test n im waiting my russian results from Ekaterina, i do want avtomat so no need to go to class n no finale test on russian for dis sem.... staying up late at nite, yes, always did dat untill theres dark circles around my eyes n i looked like racoon early in d morning! wut to do....
laptop: shut me down!!!!! StUdy!!!

depressio......

lie, its a verb and it means tell a lie or lies...... lotsa things happen to me lately like Mrs Tak couldnt except and she felt dat my mistakes in my biology answers were BIG and as a punishment i got satisfactory mark for dat...... damn im totally pissed off and im almost cried for dat.... ryte now, im bustin my ass to complete d physics skema for my groupmates.... me n azryna doin d physics while bin bin doin chemistry n bio wif d others.... i wish i could go back home now.... talkin bout lie, white lie n all kinda lies... im thinkin how come dat kind of people can live with lying to d other people....id been lied for all dis tyme.... i juz want dat person tell me d truth... i knoe, its embarassing but plz tell me d truth!!!!!!!! i would reconsider bout wut u did....it seems like, we couldnt be d same like d old days n i think i couldnt trust u......u knoe wut while u were talkin to me, i felt sad n dejected for wut u had done to us.... for all dis tyme, i really... really trust u.... thank god, i didnt tell u my darkest secret yet, but i hate to keep on doin d same mistake in my life: trusting d wrong people! it hurts when i knoe d truth from sumone else who is closed to us.... but why???? i tot dat i wouldnt meet liars anymore, huhuhuhuh.........

as d matter of fact, when i see ur face, oh my.... ( how could i didnt noticed dat before dat u are d one, yes u are d only one dat couldnt be and shouldnt be trusted)... i shouldnt take forgranted wut d others had told me before dis.... dun trust sumone easily......

i hate being lied!!!!!

~d end~

to my lil bro, An

gimme sum idea on how to stimulate my younger bro's brain to study??? is an I-Pod enough to stimulate him or wut should i say???? dude, study lah.... exams are way soooo important to u ok... dun make abah n mama sad ok! make them proud of u.... i knoe u r smart, yes u are.... tapi ur big problem is u r so or not so pemalas! heh, wut d heck.... ok la, PMR not dat big exam but still penting in ur lyfe, its like takin a BIG step in ur lyfe.... tho, i now ur school tue gettin improved n many of my fwens from dat school scored in PMR n SPM. Nonetheless, do ur verrry best. i knoe u can do it. go to school, budget ur tyme: more studying other than playing. plus, while studyin switch off ur phone n throw it away from u ( dats d best, hp is d devil, i knoe u keep on texting or playin d games) summore close d door and concentrate! ( u tot i dunno wut u did in ur room huh? i knoe everything lah, while i was at home!) hurmmmm.... other than that, for maths: more exercises, geo: hafal d map n d position, science: understand n memorize all d details same as kh n agama, bm: read more n hafal d grammar, english: same as bm, history: hafal semua..... uhuhuhu, its kinda hard but as u grow older, u'll knoe dat there are no things dat u would get it easily, NO PAIN NO GAIN.... lastly, Strive For d Best ;)

recipe+cooking=yummy food!

here's a thought....
wut happen as if u r fighting wif sumone dat......
hurmmmm.....
dun wanna talk about it lah...
let it be like dat.... not dat important...
yeay, im sooo happy, mama i luv u sooooo much... thank u for d recipe......
today i buat 'begedil ayam' , sedap n it had been approved by my roomies n my grupmates..... ehehehe, kinda proud of myself.... ouh never mind... nanti, i kembang x abes.... well, today's fine... cook togetha wif azryna, bin bin, malini n dinesha, u guys, best kan makan togetha.... i think we shud do it again.... anytyme, seriously, im enjoyin it. bile la lg nak wat cam2 selain attend d class togetha... summore, early in d morning, baked roti pisang wif my roomies using d new bread maker.... d bread was super duper sedap!!!!! macam gardenia in malaysia..... makin bread for business? dalam perancangan, maybe next sem since everyone is busy wif exams... darn.... 4 papers for final n fly back to my home schweeet home.... cant wait to go back...
mizz u guysss load ;)

uhuhuhuh, dis is d pic without me during raya.... i knoe everyone was thinkin bout me durin raya tyme.... im doin juz fine herre, i'll be back dis june.... mmmmuahhxxxx,

wif luv n kisses,

filzah nur johar

im doin fine herre....

to aainaa kamilah.... weyh, if u r reading dis post u shud be flattered ok... im writin dis after i read ur comment in my old blogs in fs.... u knoe wut, bloggin is my 2nd obsession other than shopping la kannn.... i dunno y, i think it helps me to get through everything dat i'd been through herre.... tho, i knoe, we chat thru ym almost everyday since both of us r sooooo free... n thanks to u for keepin me updated for every single thing dat happened in mesia... epecially bout all of fwens... plus, my big sis, kak dayah, thank u for d pictures.. n im sorry if im disturbin u when u r workin in d office n i wanna ask u again: do i look older than u??? hmmm.... im wonder??? do i look dat old??? hurmmphh... maybe i look bit mature than u lah... so, dats y all ur fwens said im your older sis... still, ija x puas hati... y la??? eheheheh, thank u for all d advices for dat b**** thingy... ija da borak wif mama juz now n she said d same thing as in d text (i mean d msg).... gosh.... athirah, amy, shirin, ira, azyan n everyone else: thank u to u guys, oihhh... i mizz u guys lotss... cant wait to go back home..... to farah ruhana: babe, hopefully our plan berjaye to go to lgkw n melawat everyone else there....
as in livin in russia or to be precise in nizhny: it changed me a lot!!! especially my cookin skill, not dat bad, yet, still hav to improve it, sooo, by d tyme when im back to mesia, i can cook for my lil bro, who always membebel n memerli me coz i cant cook ( dats sooo last tyme ok, i can cook now, an) but my shopping habit cannot be change, ever! i really loooooveeee to shop :) my studies: ok, my grupmates: d best! tp i x paham mengapa ada orang berasa iri hati, sakit hati, tidak puas hati dengan kami??? (i should not type it here, tp nak jugak), its ok, asalkan kita bahagia sudah, biarkan mereka.... mulut org mmg x ble ditutup! biar mereka cakap sepuas hati, apabila tahu penat, tahulah mereka untuk diam! soooo, basically, im doin fine herre...