being paranoid...

last night, odie sumhow IM with me...
daymn.... missing her a lot! almost 4 years i havent met her in person. even when i'm back in msia during summer... we didnt hang out (i know med students in msia rarely have free time to hanging out or u guys are busy indulging yourself with med books) hehehe ... yet, she told me dat she's sick... i mean really sick and require surgery... since, she had told me about the symptoms and signs of the sickness long time ago... i did guess its apendicitis but i'm not so sure whether acute or chronic... alhmdulillah, first guess, correct! well, odie is my rummate back in langkawi, when we were form 1... funny, most stubborn person i knew! and
odie dear, get well soon.. please update me soon... and i'm sorry i'd told azyan because i want to make sure you're in the hospital already.. mmmuahhhxxx...

alhamdulillah.... i'd finished all my classes except russian language. practically, i'm free now but not dat free since microbiology exam is coming!!! yup, it's depressing... loads of chapters not yet covered and on the day of examination, no careless mistake, have to be careful because of the subject.... one mistake turns to be bad impression.... yet, d examiner might be cynical or kind-hearted on the day... if she's in a good mood means that you are safe but if she's not, well that's another kind of story....

anyhoo, selamat hari raya aidil adha :)

~~~toodles, my exam is on 10th January 08.... cant wait for my winter break!

Ophthalmology

i met an ophthalmologist today in conjuction with the cooperation of pathphysiology department and her on a research. Ekaterina Vladimirovna, the ophthalmologist. well, she's young and as Svetlana vadimovna said "she's young but i know she's very experienced based on my experience as her patient".....

my result was : 2nd degree of myopia with astigmatism on my right eye... basically, i'm one of her candidate in the research and on the next spring i'm going to meet her again...

she asked me the reason why most of the overseas students have myopia??? i told her that most probably during secondary school, we studied very hard and other external causes like not enough lights, staying up and etc... she asked the duration of the classes during secondary school and i answered, around 7-8 hours...

amah??? pembantu rumah??? cleaner??? pekerja dobi???? chef???

penat la buat kerja sendiri... cuci baju sendiri, iron baju sendiri, basuh pinggan n memasak sendiri... sume kene buat sendiri!!! owh tidak, how i wish ade pekerja2 seperti yang tertera diatas... alryte, enough with crapping around fil, x cacat cela, ade tenaga sepatutnya berusaha sedaya upaya untuk menyelesaikan masalah n tidak bergantung pada org lain...
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for d past few days, i'd been busy!
monday: pathphys and russian class
tuesday:pathphys and practical at cardiology department, 5th Hosp
wednesday: pathphys class
thursday: morning, pathphys class and at night practice dancing
friday: went to MEGA with ryna n erna at noon and at night practice dancing again... blackout! (i hate dark because im scared of it)
saturday: morning, together wif my team, cooked nasi tomato (well, its been depressing because some of the stuff dat i'd ordered were different than the the list dat i'd wrote to them, tapi xpe lahh) later on, Malaysian night (yess, menari lagi lagu Nirmala).... then, at night, baru ade electric!
sunday: collapsed!

Tiga juta rakyat Malaysia disahkan sakit mental

SUNGAI PETANI 22 Nov. - Sebanyak 16 peratus atau tiga juta daripada 26 juta penduduk di negara ini disahkan mengalami sakit mental dan jumlah ini adalah sesuatu yang membimbangkan, kata Menteri Kesihatan, Datuk Seri Dr Chua Soi Lek.
Katanya, penemuan data terbaru Kajian Kesihatan dan Morbiditi Kebangsaan bagi tahun 2006 mendapati kes gangguan mental di kalangan rakyat Malaysia meningkat sebanyak hampir 6 peratus berbanding kajian yang dijalankan 10 tahun lepas.
Beliau berkata, daripada jumlah itu, sebanyak 20.3 peratus adalah di kalangan kanak-kanak dan remaja berusia bawah 16 tahun.
“Antara faktor tekanan jiwa di kalangan remaja adalah kerana gagal mendapat keputusan yang baik dalam peperiksaan, tekanan daripada keluarga dan sekolah, serta tiada sokongan masyarakat,” kata beliau kepada pemberita selepas merasmikan Hari Kesihatan Mental Sedunia peringkat kebangsaan di sini hari ini.
Katanya, ada di antara murid sekolah tertekan kerana tidak mendapat semua A dalam peperiksaan dan kemudiannya mereka dihina dan dikatakan bodoh serta tidak berguna untuk hidup, jadi mereka mengambil jalan mudah untuk menyelesaikan masalah iaitu dengan membunuh diri.
Chua berkata, daripada jumlah itu juga, sebanyak 11.2 peratus adalah pesakit di kalangan orang dewasa dan 19.5 paratus di kalangan warga emas yang berusia melebihi 70 tahun.
“Masalah kesihatan mental tidak boleh dipandang ringan, beban penyakit itu memberi kesan kepada masyarakat dan negara, dan kos perubatan untuk pesakit mental adalah semakin tinggi, manakala pesakit pula sering tidak mendapatkan rawatan awal kerana percayakan rawatan bomoh,” kata beliau.
Kes membunuh diri juga didapati semakin meningkat dengan sebanyak 20 hingga 30 orang daripada setiap 100,000 rakyat Malaysia membunuh diri setiap tahun.
Beliau berkata, kementerian juga mengalami masalah kekurangan pakar psikitiari kerana stigma masyarakat untuk menjadi pakar jiwa.
“Ada orang kita menggelar pakar jiwa `doktor gila’ dan ini menyebabkan kursus perubatan psikitiari tidak begitu popular sehingga sekarang,” kata beliau.
Katanya, setakat ini, cuma terdapat 145 orang pakar psikitiari dan negara memerlukan lebih 300 pakar lagi dalam bidang itu untuk mencapai nisbah 50 pesakit bagi seorang psikitiari.
Chua berkata, sehubungan itu, kerajaan mahu usaha mempertingkat kesedaran mengenai kesihatan mental ditambah.
- Bernama

*taken from Utusan Malaysia long time ago..... depression. lame2 pendam x elok jugak sebab nanti meletup kalah volcano! ;) keep me away from lelaki gila talak!

sorry

i really hate to say this:
i'm not goin back home due to flight ticket problems.... in fact, i'm depressed and tense up because of the tickets and my studies... after all, i did threw up just now.... my body temperature is elevated and im having headache (i'm sick).... im sooo scared i cant score for my microbiology as if im goin back, i have to do my exam earlier and i only have 20 days from now for preparation... i do, i'm so badly wanted to go back but i cant! in the end, im goin to uk again for this winter or perhaps other places... i'm sad and i feel so bad for not goin back home... kamilah, aainaa, azyan, amy,athirah and everyone; I'm sooo sorry :(

p/s: abah, mama, kak dayah and an; im sorry i cant go back... i guess, see you guys for next 8 months!!! mmuaahhxxx