i'm DEpressed!!!!

its been a while i havent update my blogs...
darn, 29th Jan: anatomy final...
ngongs: im updatin my blog now!
dis is wut happened on 20th Jan: Histology Final exam.....
well, fyi, examination in Russia definitely different than Msia... (a combination: think, write n talk)
different question... same day u took d exam n d same tyme u'll get the result!!!
Easy ey???? biG NO... No....
hell yeah...
1st, i accidentally slip my phoNe on the Floor n the back casing was like flipped out open... (menjerit sebentar)
2nd, before i entered d exam room, i dropped my pencil case...
haih, i cant believe i can be such an idiot n careless....
muahahaha... dats me while im nervous...
in the exam room:
- pick d ticket- go to the table- check d slides- answer d questions: brainstorming- stare at d window for a while- listening to d others answers- waitin for my turn- voila, im sitting next to radaev- explain bout d slides n answers plus d tersasul2 punyer jawapan coz i wast listening to him at ALL...- discuss n discuss- finally, he said: well, u r not bad at all (ayat intro x ble dpt full mark la kannn) i gave u 4- huish... 4 from u Sir, its a Big present for me ( monolog dalaman)-
how i wish i can answer all of his question Perfectly....
its Ok, i should be Gratitude.... alhamdulillah...
exams in RussIa:
1) depends on u
2) depends on ur luck
3) depends on the examiner
4) the most one, HAve faith in goD...
but, as if u didnt get wut u want.... dun blame others... there must be smthg behind it... take it as a lesson... percayalah, Allah itu Maha Adil

Fat mEans GeMok n beIng Healthy is SupeRb!

back to summer 2006: the sCEnario..... (gatherin of my Big FamilY)
ija.... da tembam!!!
ija.... asal ko da gemuk?
eyhhhh... badan ija da naik sikittttt...
damn! am i sooo fat... n am i goin to be fat by d tyme i go back to mesia dis tyme???? only God knows....
well, FAt dis title came across my mind when my roomies n me chit chatting bout gaining weight Especially during Examssss.... i guess Gaining weight is Pre-Exam ------ (fill in d blank on ur own) basically, it occurs to some people.... some people like me!
depression n being pressured obviously the causes...
hence, be careful n dont be toooo easy on urself on eating unnecessary junks.... its hard, to resist but eat adequately n dont u ever practicing on uNHealThy dIet....
check ur weight, as for me monthly is enuffff... huahauah....
exercise is a must... go out n play sumthing, stop hibernating in ur rooommm!
summore, i'd become a nocturnal.... sleepin durin d day, studyin at nite...
guess wut, today.... i almost collapsed coz i slept for about 2 hours... i'd survived thanx to mR Caffein- Nescafe.... truly, dont do this.... ur biological Clock kept on ticking n well adapted to you... once, its went wrong same goes to u... have ur BeauTy sleep, People... ;)
besides dat, take ur dietary supplement such as Vit B complex, C, beta Carotene etc etc... believe me, it helps in maintaning ur weight n it can boost up ur energy (when i was Form5, i have to eat 14 pills a day plus 2 mugs of soy milk- dun get me wrong, its My Dad who bought all those dietary supplement... im a healthy person back then, thank u Abah! mmuaahhhxxx)

my new year resolution:====i want to Be a Healthy person====

Fat no More

...hobby...

hobby....
hobby???
well, for a while... i'd been thinking... wuts my hobby??? sleeping, nah dats definitely different... cant be related to hobby coz its essential!!! hehehhe..... reading, inevitably a must for me, i didnt do reading during free tyme.... hell yeah, i realllly lurrrrve to watch movies... its not a perfect hobby for me.... i want to do sumthing dat can be appreciated by MyseLf la kannn especially...
lately, number of people had started to make photography to be their hobby... yessss, as i'd observed its full of excitement but im not dat kinda person: like to take photo or be d photographer.... muahahah.... hmmm, wut shud i do... i couldnt find d right me yet n i feel dat sumthing is missing for d whole life... call me crazy, call me psycotic but dis is CurreNt me... i couldnt find wuts d thing dats missing n preferably i would find it sooon.... back to my life herre in nizhny, an uneventful moment or etc had happened not to me but to dear friend... i dun want to write here... but truthfully, i pray to GoD so dat person wud realized everything dat --- had done... dis tyme: Super Duper Big TRouble MakeR... i couldnt stop myself for hating dat person... once dat persoN did smthing to me.... dat Person is misTaken Big tyMe...
cant wait till i finished all my exams.... huhuhuhuu... 1 feb bebeh, UK here i cummm ;)
ok... back to my hobby: wut should i do ey????

p/s: im totally wrong... eheh, tho im goin to hav exams... cant resist to keep updating my blogs!!!

i want this.....

http://www.creative.com/products/product.asp?category=210&subcategory=211&product=15752

NuMber

does number means sumthing???
duh, absolutely number : to show values, amount of these and that...
but, wut about scores for the test?
im kinda depressed coz for me number does matter....
yesss, it is till now...
my sis, hIdayah called me Gila coz i scored in my SPM....
jealousy.... absolutely, when everyone got higher marks than me...
1, 2, 3, 4 or 5
these are the rate for ur test and exams in Russia....
1 means Fail
2 means Fail toooo
3 means Ok
4 means GoOd
5 means Excellent........
basically, to let those unclassified and inevitably feel of sadness, depressing yet full of grim away.........
people would say: 3, 4 or 5 it doesnt matter, wut does matter is d knowledge dat u get from learning... those knowledge are important for u to apply it in ur lifetime... the scores: its JUST number!
however, these number will give 1st impression from ur lecturer n their impression do matter...

by now, im shittless scared to face my exams!!!

counting the days towards it but avalanche of notes have to memorize

darn, i couldnt imagine on how to face it....

keep on studying.... its d best dat i can do n have to!

intoxicated...

ohhhhh my...
i couldnt believe it...
i did bout 500 +++ computer question for anatomy...
blearggghhh... verrry intoxicated....
sakittt mata... sakittt kepala all in a package...
haish... staring on d screen from 11 am camtue...
well bout 300 sumthing question lagi...
scarrrry... during exams: 100 question in 90 minutes....
recap, on how i bought d software from Melnikov Aleksei Alekseiovich.....
darn... this lecturer amatttt menduga kesabarannn...
mmg dalam hati.. haish, x dpt jugak nie pelangkung gak die ngan my laptop!
alhamdulillah on friday i managed to find him...
sakittt bahu tawww... dok kelek my laptop 2 or 3 tymes to semashko..
in the end waiting for him, to install d programme;
i almost tripped... he laughed...
then noleen came wif kash.. he smirked...
so, i said to him: sir, isho ajin, pajhalusta!
aleksei: hahahhaha.... (laughed again)
haish... he's soooo unpredictable....
then steven came...
he told us dat he's goin to be crazy... crazy day..
yesss i knoe y..... tooo many students wif lappy, wif money to buy d cd...
he's intoxicated wif it...
ngehehehee....
well,
SeLAmaT HAri RAya AidiLadha....
New Year 2007 is comin, so is there any new resolutions????
mid Till end of JAn: gonna be a looooong tyme, bustin my asss for final, wish me luck ;)

ph-il-o-so-ph-y

yeay!!!!
almost complete all zacots...
3 more to go, hopefully i'll get these 3 left before new year, insyaallah...
totally happy coz i did my philosphy already...
mind you, philospy is Hard need super duper concentration to study it!
yawn... sleepy, i slept only 4 hours today,
tHanx dMitri coz givin me Socrates & his Followers question...

people Happy Hols, Happy New Year n Gewd lUck in Ur Exams n...

best wishes in everythiN :P

p/s: i dont think dat i will update Wicked untill i finish my exams.....

dis is my pre-exams mode....
considering my state of mind is inevitably SeraBot, do forgive me for Everything dat i had done.
deeply in my heart, im seriously wanted not to be such an Ignorant person....
forgive me if i'd suddenly gave most stupid or unreasonable excuses to hang up d phone...
i can be like dis....
especially during my pre-Exam Mode
thus, i can be self-centered person as all of u cant imagine..
tho, sumtymes i wondered why...
plzz forgive me for becoming dis pathetic Person....

if dis lyfe like a fairy tales

dis fairy tales make me think bout smthg:
in a land far... far away... there live a King... one day, One of the God offered him a Big Cup dat Is full wif miracle Water.. yet, d king Had been warned by the gOd dat if he drank d miracle water... he cud live for another 300 years..... so, d king decided to call all 'cendekiawan' in his Country..... everyone came n all of them decided dat D King shouldnt drink d miracle water..... but, there is smarty pAnt bird didnt attend d meeting.... yet, d King went to met him... and d bird ask D king.....
bird: do u want to share d miracle water wif everyone???
king: i cant coz God told me not to do so.... d water is for me...
bird: well, do u want to live alone for 300 years??
king:.......... ( i forgot d ending)
well... guys, my russian lecturer asked me whether i wud drink d miracle water as if im d KIng??? i said maybe... coz i wanted to see wut will happen in 300 years tyme... i knoe its impossible... yet, dont u want to see ur next generation???? sum of my classmates directly said no coz they cant live without those people they live wif now... yupss, i knoe its kinda hard to think bout it... alone without ur loved ones... dats a torture! sumhow, everything wud be different by dat tyme... 300 years: haish, too long... impossible...
regarding to my title for these post;
if dis lyfe is a fairy tale..... it can be lots of options; whether u lead a happy life at first and then d evil one will cums along (like witches or evil stepmother)..... or u'll die sacrificing urself for d love ones.... or u meet ur Prince Charming... livin in a forest or d land ruled by haPPy go luckY King... curses... hate n lOve... ended wif moral values....