today is monday

monday...

yess, today is monday haish!!!!

how i wish today is saturday or sunday....

i wish it will forever be sunday...

so that i can go shopping...

i can sleep all day long

i can watch movies non stop....

i wish n i keep on wishIng....

tyme pass by n it waits for no man....

tomorrow its tuesday...

then the next day is wedneday...

then it will be thursday, n owhhh its d women's day

owh yeah, its d holiday...

hehehhe....

i hate being this lazy bump...

im thinking on how to get it back together to my initial state wic means dat so called FilZah d studious one...

im reminiscing on how CEkaL i can be during the last sem preparin myself for anatomy n Histology....

im agreed wif wut BIn said durin biochem class: haiya, wiff all those collection movies dat we hav now, how r we goin to study??? coz it keeps callin us to watch.....;P

for now, call me laZy ass n i wouldnt care bout it....

basketball or handball: i wish i cud play both game...

either two or only one...

damn, im not dat fit no more!

hipocracy... it does exist in dis world, hipocrite??? yesss, of course everyone had been one.
i do n i did it. pretending to like or to be like.... say smthg is nice yet it is not...smile while u r not in d best of mood... laugh out loud tho u r not happy....
it does sucks, dont ya think that???
livin in denial.... way toooo much!!!!
im thinkin about it... no conclusion to be made....
im not dat depressed but i felt im losin smthg...... i hate to say this but this is d truth... the thing dat's im goin to lose im not sure wut is it???
im losin it..... god forbid, i cant imagine if im losin my insanity...... im goin to be crazy! wacko filpill....
hahahaha... dat is d intro: i dun hav nothin to write.... its been a while i havent update my blog...
i misss my blog plus, im busy thinkin wic airlines i shud take to go back home....
i miss msia, i miss my home....
anyhooo, d 4th sem out of 12th sem of studyin medicine is the HONEYMOON tyme..
yeah baby, honeymoon.... not much to study anyway...
but still, 4 subjects for exams.....
physiology, biochemistry, philosophy n russian lang

d 1st wiNter bReak

::birmingham::london::manchester::
so, my winter break was splendid coz:
1) fully supported by Mama n Kak mIe
2) shoppin till im bored
3) woke up any tyme dat i want
4) can stay outside not only during d day BUT at NYte also!
5) i ate Ramen, kueh teow, nanDo's n etc ( those food dat i cant find in RuSSia)
6) watched TV non stop....
well, 1st day: 1/2/07
departed from sheremetova 2 to london heathrow, its 4 h flight....
then, off straight to birmingham.....
birmingham:
nice place to live.... serene, canal??? lots of it, verrrry nice.....
but 1 thing dat i like is..... i can memorize the streets kt sane already... i mean from my sis house to bullring!!! yessss, so its like everyday i went to d pallasades n bullring....
manchester:
cool place..... thanx to ikmal for teman me to old trafford n all, mal, thanx for all okies... mizz ya tonz!
london:
hah! dis place, simply best! walk here n there wif kak mie......
oxford st: wohooooo, millions of people, trust me..... seriously lots of peeps
bond st: hhehehe, dis st byk kedai halal!
knightsbridge: harrods!!!!
covent garden: ehhehe, lots of shops..... but d most, 1st shop dat both of us notice is GUESS.....
but, we didnt buy anything from it coz in msia ponnn ade.... end up shopping in nine west since in msia d price kinda expensive compared herrre.....
shopping, im luvin it!
last day: 9/2/07
back from london heathrow to sheremetova 2....
my luggage was full wif all those stuff dat i bought...
darn, im flattered wif d guy i met in the train to watford junction... so cute! hehehhe :)

talk about anatomy......

gewd morning!!!
haish, i woke up at 0710 lyke dat...
awal kann... alhamdulillah, solat subuh then menghadap laptop lah kerja saye....
im bored nothin to do...
no new series n movies to watch....
10 o clock... out from my room to the library ( 2 libraries actually), later to the deans...
hoih, i hate this part...
saye benci menunggu!!!!
tp x pe.... since im goin to uk...
i guess its worth for it...
n i had discovered dat...
i can be verrrry blur person durin exam tyme n lumpy...
especially 2-3 days before it...
there was once umang was asking me to show him the fibroblast from the slide n i was lyke... wut??? i cant understand him... sooo, wani help me to translate it.... damn, i wonder how it could happen... toooo much readin plus tension, maybe???
later, before anatomy final, adli text me tellin me dat he bought the train ticket on 31st on the morning, i simply telling him dat we couldnt make it to d airport coz we'll arrive at moscow an hour before our flight.... shooottt!!! d ticket on 31st early in the morning n we r goin to be arrived on 31st morning also but on different tyme, like 1130....
stupid, date n day ponn i cant differentiate it.... rase amattt bodoh n hopelessss
sooo i apologized to him n thanked him for make it crystal clear for me..... uhuhuhu... i bet, everyone noticed my blurnesss n lumpynesss ini....
BenGONg!!!
yesterday, was d day: Final Exams on Anatomy...
fewh, Andre was my examiner.... shame on me... intercostal space ponn x bole nk kire apetah lagi the lines for the thoracic cage.... first i mistakenly saying dat apex cordis was on the 8th intercostal space... ngokngek... its 5th intercostal space.... bawah gile jantung itewww, later, i kate its on parasternal line... darn, 1 more mistake its on linea medioclavicularis.... rase amatt bengong cozz all d lines ponn i da x reti nak tgk..... soooo, d complete answer is... on the 5th intercostal space from linea medioclavicularis.... owh yeah, im freakinnn chicken shit lahhh in the exams hall... keepin on sayin sorry to Andre... thank God he's verrrry understanding man, he knew dat im freakin nervous..... i luv u sir, for givin me 5... eheh... wiff d all tersasul jawapan.... only dat part, others i can answer it perfectly...
well, 2nd question about teeth.... uhuhuh, i was lyke.... haish.. all of sudden, naseb baek bole recall all the facies....
last question, muscles of forearm.... hhuhuhuhu, our hand hav lots of muscles, salah tgk origin n insertion... salah la ur muscle itewww nanti....
btw, Andre was laughing allll d tyme while listening to my answers.... verry patient man.... so, people who r havin final today: gewd luck n relax... not worth to be nervous lahhh... keep it cool, answer all d question then explain.... ;)
durin preparat test, i accidentally hold a nerve n said its d artery...... i dunno how did it happen... verry carelessss..... i hate myself when im nervous!!!
well, i think dis blog kinda tribute of anatomy... since its d end of tyme studyin dis subject n every subjects will be related to it... Thank u to All d lecTurers....

i'm DEpressed!!!!

its been a while i havent update my blogs...
darn, 29th Jan: anatomy final...
ngongs: im updatin my blog now!
dis is wut happened on 20th Jan: Histology Final exam.....
well, fyi, examination in Russia definitely different than Msia... (a combination: think, write n talk)
different question... same day u took d exam n d same tyme u'll get the result!!!
Easy ey???? biG NO... No....
hell yeah...
1st, i accidentally slip my phoNe on the Floor n the back casing was like flipped out open... (menjerit sebentar)
2nd, before i entered d exam room, i dropped my pencil case...
haih, i cant believe i can be such an idiot n careless....
muahahaha... dats me while im nervous...
in the exam room:
- pick d ticket- go to the table- check d slides- answer d questions: brainstorming- stare at d window for a while- listening to d others answers- waitin for my turn- voila, im sitting next to radaev- explain bout d slides n answers plus d tersasul2 punyer jawapan coz i wast listening to him at ALL...- discuss n discuss- finally, he said: well, u r not bad at all (ayat intro x ble dpt full mark la kannn) i gave u 4- huish... 4 from u Sir, its a Big present for me ( monolog dalaman)-
how i wish i can answer all of his question Perfectly....
its Ok, i should be Gratitude.... alhamdulillah...
exams in RussIa:
1) depends on u
2) depends on ur luck
3) depends on the examiner
4) the most one, HAve faith in goD...
but, as if u didnt get wut u want.... dun blame others... there must be smthg behind it... take it as a lesson... percayalah, Allah itu Maha Adil

Fat mEans GeMok n beIng Healthy is SupeRb!

back to summer 2006: the sCEnario..... (gatherin of my Big FamilY)
ija.... da tembam!!!
ija.... asal ko da gemuk?
eyhhhh... badan ija da naik sikittttt...
damn! am i sooo fat... n am i goin to be fat by d tyme i go back to mesia dis tyme???? only God knows....
well, FAt dis title came across my mind when my roomies n me chit chatting bout gaining weight Especially during Examssss.... i guess Gaining weight is Pre-Exam ------ (fill in d blank on ur own) basically, it occurs to some people.... some people like me!
depression n being pressured obviously the causes...
hence, be careful n dont be toooo easy on urself on eating unnecessary junks.... its hard, to resist but eat adequately n dont u ever practicing on uNHealThy dIet....
check ur weight, as for me monthly is enuffff... huahauah....
exercise is a must... go out n play sumthing, stop hibernating in ur rooommm!
summore, i'd become a nocturnal.... sleepin durin d day, studyin at nite...
guess wut, today.... i almost collapsed coz i slept for about 2 hours... i'd survived thanx to mR Caffein- Nescafe.... truly, dont do this.... ur biological Clock kept on ticking n well adapted to you... once, its went wrong same goes to u... have ur BeauTy sleep, People... ;)
besides dat, take ur dietary supplement such as Vit B complex, C, beta Carotene etc etc... believe me, it helps in maintaning ur weight n it can boost up ur energy (when i was Form5, i have to eat 14 pills a day plus 2 mugs of soy milk- dun get me wrong, its My Dad who bought all those dietary supplement... im a healthy person back then, thank u Abah! mmuaahhhxxx)

my new year resolution:====i want to Be a Healthy person====

Fat no More

...hobby...

hobby....
hobby???
well, for a while... i'd been thinking... wuts my hobby??? sleeping, nah dats definitely different... cant be related to hobby coz its essential!!! hehehhe..... reading, inevitably a must for me, i didnt do reading during free tyme.... hell yeah, i realllly lurrrrve to watch movies... its not a perfect hobby for me.... i want to do sumthing dat can be appreciated by MyseLf la kannn especially...
lately, number of people had started to make photography to be their hobby... yessss, as i'd observed its full of excitement but im not dat kinda person: like to take photo or be d photographer.... muahahah.... hmmm, wut shud i do... i couldnt find d right me yet n i feel dat sumthing is missing for d whole life... call me crazy, call me psycotic but dis is CurreNt me... i couldnt find wuts d thing dats missing n preferably i would find it sooon.... back to my life herre in nizhny, an uneventful moment or etc had happened not to me but to dear friend... i dun want to write here... but truthfully, i pray to GoD so dat person wud realized everything dat --- had done... dis tyme: Super Duper Big TRouble MakeR... i couldnt stop myself for hating dat person... once dat persoN did smthing to me.... dat Person is misTaken Big tyMe...
cant wait till i finished all my exams.... huhuhuhuu... 1 feb bebeh, UK here i cummm ;)
ok... back to my hobby: wut should i do ey????

p/s: im totally wrong... eheh, tho im goin to hav exams... cant resist to keep updating my blogs!!!

i want this.....

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NuMber

does number means sumthing???
duh, absolutely number : to show values, amount of these and that...
but, wut about scores for the test?
im kinda depressed coz for me number does matter....
yesss, it is till now...
my sis, hIdayah called me Gila coz i scored in my SPM....
jealousy.... absolutely, when everyone got higher marks than me...
1, 2, 3, 4 or 5
these are the rate for ur test and exams in Russia....
1 means Fail
2 means Fail toooo
3 means Ok
4 means GoOd
5 means Excellent........
basically, to let those unclassified and inevitably feel of sadness, depressing yet full of grim away.........
people would say: 3, 4 or 5 it doesnt matter, wut does matter is d knowledge dat u get from learning... those knowledge are important for u to apply it in ur lifetime... the scores: its JUST number!
however, these number will give 1st impression from ur lecturer n their impression do matter...

by now, im shittless scared to face my exams!!!

counting the days towards it but avalanche of notes have to memorize

darn, i couldnt imagine on how to face it....

keep on studying.... its d best dat i can do n have to!